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keningau, Sabah, the place u live in PEACE, Malaysia
I'm a proud-faced, but it is not at all. Sometimes I like it alone, but many times I want to be friends. I liked the lively (many people). I am a person who likes to socialize. I do not like the place is limited, meaning control. I like freedom. I was protecting my property rights. I hate hypocrisy. I am a glutton for work. That the given task, I will complete as me. I do not like to work half way. I am a person who likes to think outside the box comfortably. I like challenges. I can sing well (wow. ..), I like art. I love sports, I like sports, I like to eat. :)

Thursday, August 11, 2011

A badly week

I am badly coughing and went to hospital to get medical attention, and I was given a one day sick leave.

Like a turn, My Dani also sick. He was Diarrhea and Vomiting. After checked, the doctor said my baby need to admit to the ward because of The Blood PH was acidic and he was hydration. So, I need to take a Leave to look after my baby in ward. F.Y.I, my Leave was only 5 days left.

Still at the ward, And Praise to God, my baby get well soon. So, we discharge by that late afternoon, before the sungkai. (I missed 2 days fasting)

I should be working today, but this is my badly week. My Amah was not cumin’ to work. She still urus-urus her passport. So…I take a Leave again… Leave only 2 days left….Huuhhh…scared if any emergency soon…Hopefully nothing bad happen. Amin..

Friday - tomorrow ( what will happen again??) hopefully my amah will I can go work. I Bet, lots of work was waiting there...God, Give me your strength and patient to face the attempts. 

Monday, August 1, 2011

It's Ramadan!

Morning August! Morning Ramadan! 
It is the first day of fasting day. The last year 2010, I do not fast because I was still in confinement after giving birth to my first child, furthermore, I give my baby breast feeding and I’m still not ready...what you call it...I’m still in ‘Childbirth Blood’. So I owe the last year fasting ooo..I keep wondering how I could pay for it. Huuuuuhhh...
2011. In this fasting month, I was pregnant for my second baby. It was my 27 weeks (nearly to 7 months). I’m struggling myself to do fasting. Hopefully, it not adversely affect my baby as I am Anemia in pregnancy. My Hemoglobin is below 11Hmg. It just 9Hmg. And now I felt like fening-fening...”God, I need your strength so that I could carry out my responsibility as your servant”.
In this opportunity, I would like to wish all the Muslimin and the Muslimat, Happy Ramadan. May this blessed month teaches us to be more patient, disciplined and always be faithful to His Commands. InsyaAllah...

Friday, July 29, 2011

The wasted time Last Nite

Last night, at 8.00pm, I was sat infront of the TV and my Dani Oready ZZzzzz. Guess what? I was in chanel TV1, waiting for the football match between Singapore vs Malaysia. I've missed the match before which scored Singapore 5- MAS 3. And I won't be missed for the second time.

My husband was out to enjoy the game with his friend at warung Hakiki..So I watch it by my self, since my MIL not interested to it. I am waiting for the 8.30pm. The game started with an amazing energy from MAS and goal was started by MAS from Safee's shoot. Then, the game was so bad when MAS seems like no energy, and looked no strategy. It is crowded. Firstly, I was betting the score 3 MAS, while the Singapore scoring 1 goal. But the Game end up with a bad score 1-1. Huh! before the game finished in their 5 minutes additional time, I switch the TV off, and move to bed. Wasting time watching the game. Regret to not sleep earlier. And today I was soo sleepy, since my Dani woke at 2am, and playing till 4am. know what. I don't know the footbal rules, I just know the GOAL. And I like watching football since my secondary school. Heheheheeee...    


Seems like everybody’s got a price,
I wonder how they sleep at night.
When the tale comes first,
And the truth comes second,
Just stop, for a minute and

Why is everybody so serious!
Acting so damn mysterious
You got your shades on your eyes
And your heels so high
That you can’t even have a good time.

Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you feel that (yeah)
Well pay them with love tonight

It’s not about the money, money, money
We don’t need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag

Ain’t about the (ha) Cha-Ching Cha-Ching.
Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Bling Ba-Bling
Wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag.

We need to take it back in time,
When music made us all UNITE!
And it wasn’t low blows and video Hoes,
Am I the only one gettin tired?
Why is everybody so obsessed?
Money can’t buy us happiness
Can we all slow down and enjoy right now
Guarantee we’ll be feelin
All right.

Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you feel that (yeah)
Well pay them with love tonight

Yeah yeah
Well, keep the price tag
And take the cash back
Just give me six streams and a half stack
And you can keep the cars
Leave me the garage
And all I..
Yes all I need are keys and garage
And guess what, in 30 seconds I’m leaving to Mars
Yes we leaving across these undefeatable odds
Its like this man, you can’t put a price on life
We do this for the love so we fight and sacrifice everynight
So we aint gon stumble and fall never
Waiting to see, a sign of defeat uh uh
So we gon keep everyone moving there feet
So bring back the beat and everybody sing
It’s not about

Yeah yeah
Forget about the price tag

Thursday, July 28, 2011

I'm cooking, and eating hardly!

Morning Blog...
Today is Thursday and I was sitting at my chair, my fingers typing what cross in my mind. I am quit sleepy right now (time is 10.15am). Don’t know what to do so...I’m kinda BORING. So I decided to do blog.

Today is the first day of school’s sport day. Now, the ‘Sukaneka’ was ongoing. It so crowded with the activities, laughing and voice of the parents who loudly supporting their child. It is fun watching them running, while the others, looking blur, don’t know what to do...and their friend said “aiya...tinguk c ANU ni...adakah dia  bejalan macam itik?? B***h! Baru tau...kalah sudah” (Wow...this budak punya mulut ar...teda insuran...) I enjoy seeing their parents jumping like a kid, shouting their child name. How I’m so excited to support my child as like that. Sure my voice will be the louder one.
Just sign in again,(time: 1.02pm) continuing my blog. I just finished cooking the recipe of ‘Ikan Patin masak Tempoyak’ since my office mate and the PKs ask me to prepare for it. It was because, the last Saturday, we have a gotong-royong day in school. So, as I am the pregnant lady, I can’t angkat-angkat benda yang berat-berat. So, I took the position as a chef cook at that time. I prepare The Ikan Patin masak tempoyak. The PK was missed the recipe and the other staff said ”mau lagi makan tu ikan patin o beth..semalam kan saya tebangun jam 4am. Saya mimpi singgurup-singgurup (hirup) tu sup ikan kau. Kitai! Trus saya inda dapat tidur sudah” the one of our aunt said..kesian juga...and the PKs ask me to cook it again. “kami pun mo rasa ini..apa...ko bagi sama c ANU ni...sampai dia temimpi-mimpi...” said the PK. So I ask them to buy the bahan-bahan, and I wil bring along the tempoyak and the asam keping. Actually it is simple to prepare. As well as you prepare the Mee Maggi... And now I am overly loaded. Sleepy....:)

p/s: God, Thanx for the food that you gave to me today....

Thursday, July 21, 2011

I Knock you blog!

Ding Dong...
I Enter the blog again...Stil alive ok..Hopefully I'm Not blur at this moment, as the past long-long day, I was blur when starting to write down here. Have no idea actually.
I am thinking about my past day, in my new work place. Lucky me, it's not too far from my house. It taking about 10 minutes, plus the jammed. And I am every morning rushing, try to escape the jammed, as I should be in office before 7am.
I am a new post here, but not too FRESHY as well...because I have an experience working at Jabatan Belia dan Sukan for almost 4 years. Thanx to the experience, and that is my advantage. Even Im new here, but I think I can handle it well. Doing ADMIN is not an easy way. Lots of work to be settle up urgently. If not, I will stuck with my pending work, I will be hammer by the other staff, I will be blame and so on...eee...bikin takut. Saya tidak suka la tu macam kan... And that is the reason I Need and I MUST finish my work ON TIME. As I can do it by that time, then I will do it properly. And thanx, I was being appreciated by the GB... She Praise me for that.. Heheheheh...can I ^____^Big Smile* Ok..Stop!
Talking about my new work situation, compare to tha past work place, it more passive. I mean, in my office before, we work with laugh and joke. Not the staff only, but we do our task with our "Sukarelawan Elit' which always give their hands to prepare all the props of any programmes. we done the work with joy and celebration after the programme done well. That is the moments that I miss the most. When we share many things like family, we talk heart to heart like siblings, far from the back stabber. How I miss my late work place...miss my family tears going milky when I remind about the past. Huhuhuhu...Good bye my single work I am single when I was there, and now I am married, being a wife to my beloved Husband and Mom to my Dani and my future second baby. It was changed as I am changing my task of life.
Now I am working in my new place, with the new episode for the entire of my life. why? Because I will hold this position until my 58 years old...Kalaulah boleh pencen muda, Then I will. Now Im handling the Admin. It'is not easy right..I need to update, record, filing, closing and manage all the 73 staff files, and the others office files. Plus, Lots of reports to be update every day, every week and every month, send the reports to the PPD...record all the staffs attendance, update the school's data and the unexpected things that need to be submit tomorrow...huhuhuuu..I hate the last minute work. Hari ini bagi, hari ni juga mau siap! Huh! Annoying! macam robot pula. *ok..will continue later...gotta work to be done ASAP!.bye...*

Wednesday, March 23, 2011


Thanks .. God heard my prayer.

Yesterday I received a Pos Laju letter from Ministry of Education for Self-Reporting Instructions. Of course, it soon is very exciting news to my heart. But,despite the excitement, there is a slight disappointment.I was placed in charge of the Education Department Sabah, Kota Kinabalu.Huuuuuuuuuhhhhhh ... Long sigh. Ada kerja susah, Teda kerja pun susah...I expect that I will be assigned in rural areas. Most were, in Keningau,Tenom, Tambunan, or Nabawan.

KK ... I think a lot of things. Home, high cost of living, traffic jammed, long way from KK to Keningau, leaving my husband at Keningau ... and
terrrrrlalu banyak. I was dizzy.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

God..Please hear me...

Finally, my wait has been answered. But not completely answered. Still in the air. Results of the interview I went on December 21, 2010, missed out today, and the answer is a bit confusing for my head and hurt. "CALON SIMPANAN" Hadui .... at the moment I really need a job, this was the answer I received. Answers like this make me hopeless. I was a dead end road.

Lord ... help me .... indeed, I am very, very want to work, so I am not entirely, to rely with my hubby ... But actually, that's not the main factor I want to work. He can be fulfilled all my needed. Praise to God...but one thing is too hard, I can;t express here. My God .. if you don't want me towards the wrong way and harm my family .. take me to a path that can rescue the situation and that I respect. AMEN ....

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Really Miss~

I'm in another mood ...

Today,my in law have each returned to their respective homes. ya la ...because each is committed
to employment, and household affairs. Each have their childrens and husband to be managed.

A few days ago, the house was full of laughter and crying little babies ... sounds of children playing ... really fun. Especially for me and my son is 24 hours at home alone.Day-to-day routine is the same.

It would be nice .. if the house is filled with days of the voice, laughing, crying...of course,fun ... .. I am very tired .... I miss my home ... I miss the noisy situation ... I missed a lot ofthings . And an important point, I missed the peace and tranquility. especially privacy.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

I am forced to be a Devil.


I hate the :-
  1. hypocritical
  2. double-faced
  3. insincere
  4. Jesuitical
  5. two-sided
  6. Jesuitic
  7. two-faced
  8. simon-pure
  9. two-tongued
  10. specious
  11. double dealing
All the kind of it..., Since I was being treated such a way,
I can also do the same.I hate this so much, but since I was treated like a fool so damn stupid,
so I decided to give it back like what you gave to me.
p/s: I am so sorry. I am being Devil...-_-

Friday, February 11, 2011

Blurry of Life

It seems my life is still wobbling without a major goal. Feel sad ... another friend was happy with their lives, but I am still searching, and searching. I don't know when the searching would end. But certainly, I will not stop searching in my half way.
I also want to live with goals. Ashamed of my siblings when I had no fixed Job till now. I need to find my life. I don't want to hold the status as a full-time housewife for the rest of my life. I am not that... I have many goals in life are not met.... Lord give me guidance to start my steps. Amin...

Monday, February 7, 2011

The psyco Nurse

Today I went to the hospital because Dani was sick. He was cold and cough. Poor him ...

Wake up, as usual, I will provide Dani's Food. After that, give Dani eat, shower, and ready to the hospital. I like Dani looks cute ... Then it is my turn to shower and get ready ...

At about 9.30am, my parents came to pick us up. my hubby was in school. So I asked my sister, Betty to accompany me.

Today is Monday and so many patients are coming. almaklumlah .. Chinese New Year was a new low. CNY holidays meant the patient also holiday lah kali ar... I continue to the registration counter. Luckily Dani was still under 12 months. If not, I was forced to queue for registration. I was told to wait in the queue was placed in room no.4,and my queue number was 39. When I came, in the call number is 26. Ermmmm ...seems it still long. Waiting in hours, the stomach was feeling hungry. So I ask Betty to find meal.
We just went to the hospital cafeteria only.

after eating, we continue to rush into the lounge room no. 4. I asked the aunt besides me, what is the numbers calling right now. The aunt says "number 49". Seems I have missed a turn. So I knocked on the door of room No. 4. and I ask, "Nurse,saya termissed nombor saya...nombor 39. The Nurse even with a relatively high voice and the face yang mencuka replied," Ko pigi mana tadi? I said "pigi makan nurse, saya lapar".EEeeee Geram betul sama tu nurse... I saw that nurse melebih-lebih pulak, The doctor just ok ja pun...and after the check and get a description of the medications, I said thank you to the doctor while glancing the nurse. Bikin geram. Minta puji lagi. kotoh!

Sunday, February 6, 2011

I need a job!

At first, I was very happy when I no longer have to work and only need to devote my full attention on my baby Dani.
But now, I started feeling tired and very bored if I spend my full time at home, with the same routine.
No job also hard. No salary will be waiting to get into the account at the end of the month. No term window shopping, shopping and so on ... seems limited. Huuuuhhh...I need a job.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

3rd February

Was even a year my father-in-law had died. I remember the incident today in the last year. Early morning, My SIL has called me. She delivered a call from Dr. Willian A/k Timmothy a kind of bad news. She was in haste to come home and told me that we all need to SMC, Damai ASAP. I told her that my hubby was still at school. I suggested that she leave before and i'll catch up with my hubby. My hubby can't be call because his school was in rural areas. No phone network.

I was keep wondering how is my in-law at that time. I continue waiting for my hubby with anxiety. In at 2.00pm and then, my hubby arrived. I keep telling this to him and we continue proceed to Kota Kinabalu. Before leaving my SIL has remind to me, to convey the news with good. Do not let him rush. Afraid my husband will drive fast, and also for the good of my pregnancy, which at that time almost 5 months.

Along the way, my hubby ask me to call my SIL to ask about my in-law's condition. I tried to calm him. Our journey is full of question marks. We arrived at Putatan about 4.00pm, but due to the traffic jammed, we caught up almost at 5.00pm.

when we dropped to SMC Damai, we accidentally met the doctor who treated my in-law. Hubby directly ask him about my in law's condition. The doctor did not directly answer. Instead, he turned back and accompanied us to the ICU at the level 2 (if I'm not mistaken). He brought my husband sat quietly in a corner, and said "Your father has just died a few minutes ago". My husband could only say "Allahuakhbar" while crying. I also cry because it's so surprised. We then entered the ICU room. My mother-in-law, sister and brother in law all been there with sadness.

We left that night to bring the arwah back to Keningau to be buried. We arrived in Keningau at about 11.00pm. Relatives and the villagers are waiting for us.

To the beloved Deceased Mokhtar Daud;

We really miss you Abah. One thing I was very sad, He cannot get to see and hold his first grandchild. May the Spirit of grace from God be with him and placed him among those who believe. Amiiiin .. Al-Fatihah.