I Knock you blog!

Ding Dong...

I Enter the blog again...Stil alive ok..Hopefully I'm Not blur at this moment, as the past long-long day, I was blur when starting to write down here. Have no idea actually.

I am thinking about my past day, in my new work place. Lucky me, it's not too far from my house. It taking about 10 minutes, plus the jammed. And I am every morning rushing, try to escape the jammed, as I should be in office before 7am.

I am a new post here, but not too FRESHY as well...because I have an experience working at Jabatan Belia dan Sukan for almost 4 years. Thanx to the experience, and that is my advantage. Even Im new here, but I think I can handle it well. Doing ADMIN is not an easy way. Lots of work to be settle up urgently. If not, I will stuck with my pending work, I will be hammer by the other staff, I will be blame and so on...eee...bikin takut. Saya tidak suka la tu macam kan... And that is the reason I Need and I MUST finish my work ON TIME. As I can do it by that time, then I will do it properly. And thanx, I was being appreciated by the GB... She Praise me for that.. Heheheheh...can I ^____^Big Smile* Ok..Stop!

Talking about my new work situation, compare to tha past work place, it more passive. I mean, in my office before, we work with laugh and joke. Not the staff only, but we do our task with our "Sukarelawan Elit' which always give their hands to prepare all the props of any programmes. we done the work with joy and celebration after the programme done well. That is the moments that I miss the most. When we share many things like family, we talk heart to heart like siblings, far from the back stabber. How I miss my late work place...miss my family there...my tears going milky when I remind about the past. Huhuhuhu...Good bye my single work place..as I am single when I was there, and now I am married, being a wife to my beloved Husband and Mom to my Dani and my future second baby. It was changed as I am changing my task of life.

Now I am working in my new place, with the new episode for the entire of my life. why? Because I will hold this position until my 58 years old...Kalaulah boleh pencen muda, Then I will. Now Im handling the Admin. It'is not easy right..I need to update, record, filing, closing and manage all the 73 staff files, and the others office files. Plus, Lots of reports to be update every day, every week and every month, send the reports to the PPD...record all the staffs attendance, update the school's data and the unexpected things that need to be submit tomorrow...huhuhuuu..I hate the last minute work. Hari ini bagi, hari ni juga mau siap! Huh! Annoying! macam robot pula. *ok..will continue later...gotta work to be done ASAP!.bye...*

HeeeeellllLLllllPPPP!!!

Thanks .. God heard my prayer.

Yesterday I received a Pos Laju letter from Ministry of Education for Self-Reporting Instructions. Of course, it soon is very exciting news to my heart. But,despite the excitement, there is a slight disappointment.I was placed in charge of the Education Department Sabah, Kota Kinabalu.Huuuuuuuuuhhhhhh ... Long sigh. Ada kerja susah, Teda kerja pun susah...I expect that I will be assigned in rural areas. Most were, in Keningau,Tenom, Tambunan, or Nabawan.

KK ... I think a lot of things. Home, high cost of living, traffic jammed, long way from KK to Keningau, leaving my husband at Keningau ... and

terrrrrlalu banyak. I was dizzy.

God..Please hear me...

Finally, my wait has been answered. But not completely answered. Still in the air. Results of the interview I went on December 21, 2010, missed out today, and the answer is a bit confusing for my head and hurt. "CALON SIMPANAN" Hadui .... at the moment I really need a job, this was the answer I received. Answers like this make me hopeless. I was a dead end road.

Lord ... help me .... indeed, I am very, very want to work, so I am not entirely, to rely with my hubby ... But actually, that's not the main factor I want to work. He can be fulfilled all my needed. Praise to God...but one thing is too hard, I can;t express here. My God .. if you don't want me towards the wrong way and harm my family .. take me to a path that can rescue the situation and that I respect. AMEN ....

Really Miss~

I'm in another mood ...

Today,my in law have each returned to their respective homes. ya la ...because each is committed

to employment, and household affairs. Each have their childrens and husband to be managed.

A few days ago, the house was full of laughter and crying little babies ... sounds of children playing ... really fun. Especially for me and my son is 24 hours at home alone.Day-to-day routine is the same.

It would be nice .. if the house is filled with days of the voice, laughing, crying...of course,fun ... .. I am very tired .... I miss my home ... I miss the noisy situation ... I missed a lot ofthings . And an important point, I missed the peace and tranquility. especially privacy.

I am forced to be a Devil.

Howdy...

I hate the :-

1. hypocritical
2. double-faced
3. insincere
4. Jesuitical
5. two-sided
6. Jesuitic
7. two-faced
8. simon-pure
9. two-tongued
10. specious
11. double dealing

All the kind of it..., Since I was being treated such a way,

I can also do the same.I hate this so much, but since I was treated like a fool so damn stupid,

so I decided to give it back like what you gave to me.

p/s: I am so sorry. I am being Devil...-_-

Blurry of Life

It seems my life is still wobbling without a major goal. Feel sad ... another friend was happy with their lives, but I am still searching, and searching. I don't know when the searching would end. But certainly, I will not stop searching in my half way.

I also want to live with goals. Ashamed of my siblings when I had no fixed Job till now. I need to find my life. I don't want to hold the status as a full-time housewife for the rest of my life. I am not that... I have many goals in life are not met.... Lord give me guidance to start my steps. Amin...