It's Ramadan!

Morning August! Morning Ramadan! 

It is the first day of fasting day. The last year 2010, I do not fast because I was still in confinement after giving birth to my first child, furthermore, I give my baby breast feeding and I’m still not ready...what you call it...I’m still in ‘Childbirth Blood’. So I owe the last year fasting ooo..I keep wondering how I could pay for it. Huuuuuhhh...

2011. In this fasting month, I was pregnant for my second baby. It was my 27 weeks (nearly to 7 months). I’m struggling myself to do fasting. Hopefully, it not adversely affect my baby as I am Anemia in pregnancy. My Hemoglobin is below 11Hmg. It just 9Hmg. And now I felt like fening-fening...”God, I need your strength so that I could carry out my responsibility as your servant”.

In this opportunity, I would like to wish all the Muslimin and the Muslimat, Happy Ramadan. May this blessed month teaches us to be more patient, disciplined and always be faithful to His Commands. InsyaAllah...

God..Please hear me...

Finally, my wait has been answered. But not completely answered. Still in the air. Results of the interview I went on December 21, 2010, missed out today, and the answer is a bit confusing for my head and hurt. "CALON SIMPANAN" Hadui .... at the moment I really need a job, this was the answer I received. Answers like this make me hopeless. I was a dead end road.

Lord ... help me .... indeed, I am very, very want to work, so I am not entirely, to rely with my hubby ... But actually, that's not the main factor I want to work. He can be fulfilled all my needed. Praise to God...but one thing is too hard, I can;t express here. My God .. if you don't want me towards the wrong way and harm my family .. take me to a path that can rescue the situation and that I respect. AMEN ....