HeeeeellllLLllllPPPP!!!

Thanks .. God heard my prayer.

Yesterday I received a Pos Laju letter from Ministry of Education for Self-Reporting Instructions. Of course, it soon is very exciting news to my heart. But,despite the excitement, there is a slight disappointment.I was placed in charge of the Education Department Sabah, Kota Kinabalu.Huuuuuuuuuhhhhhh ... Long sigh. Ada kerja susah, Teda kerja pun susah...I expect that I will be assigned in rural areas. Most were, in Keningau,Tenom, Tambunan, or Nabawan.

KK ... I think a lot of things. Home, high cost of living, traffic jammed, long way from KK to Keningau, leaving my husband at Keningau ... and

terrrrrlalu banyak. I was dizzy.

God..Please hear me...

Finally, my wait has been answered. But not completely answered. Still in the air. Results of the interview I went on December 21, 2010, missed out today, and the answer is a bit confusing for my head and hurt. "CALON SIMPANAN" Hadui .... at the moment I really need a job, this was the answer I received. Answers like this make me hopeless. I was a dead end road.

Lord ... help me .... indeed, I am very, very want to work, so I am not entirely, to rely with my hubby ... But actually, that's not the main factor I want to work. He can be fulfilled all my needed. Praise to God...but one thing is too hard, I can;t express here. My God .. if you don't want me towards the wrong way and harm my family .. take me to a path that can rescue the situation and that I respect. AMEN ....

Blurry of Life

It seems my life is still wobbling without a major goal. Feel sad ... another friend was happy with their lives, but I am still searching, and searching. I don't know when the searching would end. But certainly, I will not stop searching in my half way.

I also want to live with goals. Ashamed of my siblings when I had no fixed Job till now. I need to find my life. I don't want to hold the status as a full-time housewife for the rest of my life. I am not that... I have many goals in life are not met.... Lord give me guidance to start my steps. Amin...